how do you like me now

cigarettes and robitussin, will i ever get to heaven?
it's not looking good now. ohhh.
it's not looking good now.

come on, get drunk, you know you wanna.
i am, you can, don't tell no one bout it
it's gonna be a ball.
it's gonna be a ball.

My mother's love is choking me

I've realized my dream is to make a living by singing David Bowie in street corners 

Sad to say, I'm not a gifted singer so it's likely not going to happen

   

You're my little sparkle jump rope queen

sources of inspiration for everyday life:

models, boys, cool socks, art, compliments, cake, gilmore girls, funny bandages, plants, pulp fiction, quentin tarantino, black nail polish, david bowie, miley cyrus(yup, really), tiny movie theaters and drawing old men

I'm really addicted to gilmore girls once again, which leads me to dream about going to yale, having a cute, smart boyfriend there, having time to read books and being unbelievably genius 

besides, the characters basically live on take-aways in that show, that's all I want from life!

I bought a plant, I named him Matthew

poem

I asked you to water my plants

you kissed me and kissed me and kissed me

in many secret places

(and you were the only one who knew)

the pot fell off the nightstand

I didn’t

notice

the pieces until next morning

and I didn’t care

dust danced around my apartment

in the last rays of light

I placed a vase filled with daisies on the night stand

that night no one kissed me

because I didn’t want to

and that night my vase stood firm

I knew to value it this time

Do you know those days, those weird times in life when you have everything else sorted out but for one thing. That one thing kind of consumes you, it's a big thing that can't be ignored or solved easily. I'm really angry and upset right now even though there are many good things in my life. I don't want to fill this blog with angsty posts so I'll try and have a photoshoot someday soon and put a more inspiring caption there.